you never know whats in store next. accept it, deal with it, live with it. the point is how you make things better for it.

just a random in the world of strangers.

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June 2008
July 2008
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September 2008
October 2008
November 2008
December 2008
January 2009
February 2009
March 2009
April 2009
May 2009
June 2009
July 2009
August 2009
September 2009
October 2009
November 2009
December 2009

note: dont understand the word(s) or what not? think twice, thrice and so forth.

the weekend is over once again, how fast it zooms. suddenly, I feel there's so much to do but time just aint enough. sleep aint enough.

yesterday sent lappie for servicing, fuck the blue screen. can u imagine facing it like 30times or more. boomed. mac twice, once at funan, once at lucky chinatown. the ktv seems inviting, but no feeling for the night.

watched "Into the Wild". The character Chris is a smart, rebel young man, who dares to chase for the life of his own, his own adventure of absolute freedom. Challenges, beat-up, dares, work, random friends, survival. One great movie, my favourite so far. Based on a true story.

Sat, only got back from Batam. First trip there. I lurve the final massage. Dian did a fantastic job! $24 for 2hrs, what more can I ask for? We did changed abit of Rupiah, and will be millionaire if we changed more. Haha. Food was hmmm, hard to suit the tastebuds. With more pax going the next time, we can go "A1" as reco. by James.

Our room was a suite, 2 bedrooms 2 bathrooms 1 dining table, 1 small living room at $88/pax + $25 weekend surcharge.Holy mama, thats way alot. I should gather an army of 4, next time round! Oh, chilling out by the pool in the sun, pure heaven, apart for the mini burns that is.

Fri there was a little hipcup for the Ferry ride, got it sorted in a jiffy. No worries :) and yea, $2 Mac breakfast satisfied me.

Thurs met up James, Vivien, then Amanada & Cheryl, you can imagine how crazy I was floating around the Central of SG. Lol. Left home to pack at only 11+pm.

well, today feels slow. met jocelyn for lunch at asian kitchen, and so a glass of iced water spilled on me, jeans obviously wet, but kept it cool. not to mentioned, its damned crowded. sighs. well we continued talking, about her move and such. abt her trip to phuket, stayin at the new millenium hotel. its linked with a shoppin centre i heard. nice swimmin pool too!

went back to office to pack all and take all. well, and so miko finally changed his bag. haha. and the pple are missed, are lookin cool and busy. good good. and the issue with eve is still ard? cant believe it. and claire was gone.

i hav to drop by raffles again tml, and not to mention send tat bloody laptop to the shop for reformat or watsoever. dang. i mentioned lunch, but i guess will reconsider, since its not of great enthu points involved. or rather, i shld slp more. hahax. i haven get wat i want to do done, wat the fuck.

and kc might as well not reply? like it took 8hrs. fuckin busy huh, as claimed. i jus wanted to noe if his ankle was better, so hard huh. i guess the point is, i hate waiting for reply(ies).

dont ever test my tolerance or patience. for once ever, i waited for 3 person in a single day. wat the fuck again. dont question, am bursting with pissed anger. GRRRL. turning nonchalantly violent.

The BlackBook - Cathay Picturehouse.




Rachel/Ellis (acted by Clarice) in the show, a fortunately sad character. She acted so well, you will be bluffed. Fortune, as she always manage to get herself out of the worst situation. Sad, those she loves will eventually die. In the times of war, Germans, Canadians, Jews... or any war, there's traitors, love, betrayal, disbelief, and evil that hankers after loot - taken by force from the rich dead.

As a Jew, on her own, seperated with her family, things were tough. She met someone that claims himself as part of the Resistance, met her family along with the other rich Jews - to flee to Belgium that is. This was all but a plot, to kill them all, steal their belongings, money, jewels of cause. She remembered the killer well.

Got helped by the Canadians, ended up being a spy, working with the Germans. Got involve with a nice German high authority. Her truth, got him arrested. The Canadian doctor was the traitor, the liar, the one that helped the Germans to kill his own people, along with those held captived. They made the Canadian spyhead thought she was the one who played them out. Bastard. (All was written and related by the Lawyer her family and many rich Jews trusted) Well Hitler sure is one famous historical figure.

Death, seduction, not any better fate. Love killed and lost, she brokedown not for all her dearest, but for her fate rather. She's not even sure those were tears of sadness or plain loneliness. Again and again, all was lost. The chance came, they found the traitor and suffocate him is his favourite coffin trick. He died, they got hold of the loot and moved on, for the better. She had a family, but wasnt that happy as before. They are still in war related times.

She's a pretty, but a pity.

watched this with gerald... he mentioned he did like to give this kinda movie a shot. well, apparently the show wasnt his cuppa tea, and he still go on and say he finds is ok (he asked a number of questions in the theatre and mentioned he didnt understand). quite a hard one. he did be good for a friend, period. pretty ok guy, but prob. too much of his own. and yes, he mentioned he's a spoilt brat (only son in the family) and sporty too (gym, dragonboat, salsa...thats abt all i remembered, uh huh.) to question he's doubt that this was a art film, makes me understand he not gonna be my movie fren afterall. might as well. i did rather watch such art films alone. so i told him, basically whatever you dont understand = art. PERIOD.

well oh well, and he got me a bottle of mineral water + chips for movie (he nv been to picturehouse and he did noe food wasnt even allowed, and even if so y mineral water!) told him no, and he suggested i shld be the first to try. gosh, no way.

The Great Escape - Boys Likes Girls

Paper bags and plastic hearts
All are belongings in shopping carts
It's goodbye
But we got one more night
Let's get drunk and ride around
And make peace with an empty town
We can make it right

Throw it away
Forget yesterday
We'll make the great escape
We won't hear a word they say
They don't know us anyway
Watch it burn
Let it die
Cause we are finally free tonight

Tonight will change our lives
It's so good to be by your side
But we'll cry
We won't give up the fight
We'll scream loud at the top of our lungs
And they'll think it's just cause we're young
And we'll feel so alive

Throw it away
Forget yesterday
We'll make the great escape
We won't hear a word they say
They don't know us anyway
Watch it burn
Let it die
Cause we are finally free tonight

All of the wasted time
The hours that were left behind
The answers that we'll never find
They don't mean a thing tonight

Throw it away
Forget yesterday
We'll make the great escape
We won't hear a word they say
They don't know us anyway

Throw it away
Forget yesterday
We'll make the great escape
We won't hear a word they say
They don't know us anyway

Throw it away
Forget yesterday
We'll make the great escape
We won't hear a word they say
They don't know us anyway
Watch it burn
Let it die
Cause we are finally free tonight

You Are the Cocaine - Joshua James

Well I broke, I wrote a song
About our love, and how its strong
How your kisses keep me warm.
And even when I make you cry,
I’ll still sing you lullabies.
Make those grey clouds bright blue skies.
Because you’re the cocaine in my veins.

This is something I regret
Not confessing how I felt,
How my heart beats quicker still.
So melt your body into mine,
Become as one over time,
Lord shake her bones and make her mine.
Because you’re the cocaine in my veins.

And darlin the dirt beneath your feet,
And the scars that line your knees,
Are what keep me moving on, are what keep me moving on.
When broken down out on the streets,
And not a sign that I can see
You’re the compass that I need.

You’re the cocaine inside my blood stream
You’re the bright light, the constant moon beam
You’re the north wind that will carry me home.

You’re the woman I’ve been looking for
Because you’re the cocaine in my veins

as per the eye specialist yesterday, my eyes can emit oil... now thats kinda unexpected and interesting. not to mentioned, the orange colored eye drops results in highlighted yellow spillage from my eyes, now thats techno colors. amazingly amazing.

was bumping late at bugis and only reached Loof at 8pm. and never did i know, adam was actually there. no1 said he was coming, and yes i was happy he turned up. but felt bad when i was late and he almost missed his 1st driving lesson at age 22. Argh, instead of being upset, we continued with the cam-whoring and drinks. martinis drive me crazy, well chix was nice to drop by, though pretty late. white chocolate martini didnt taste as nice as before, but the new tryout Krispy Cucumber Martini, is refreshing - with contents of Lychee and Lemon. Wow. Afterall, its good fun with a non-working Monday.

The Watson Twins - How am I to Be.

How am I to be
With all your silly ways now
How am I to be
With all your silly ways
Now

I can take you home
If you wanna go
I can take you home
If you wanna go
Now

And there's no reason I can see for you to stay
Our truth (troops?) expired when
Armed with my secrets, the fight begins

How am I to be
With all your silly ways now
How am I to be
With all your silly ways
Now

Your past full of land mines I can't see
I can't disengage this heart
What time we been traveled from the start

And in the mornin'
When the smoke cleared there was life
Your white flag raised up high
Come back to my arms honey child

How am I to be
With all your silly ways now
How am I to be
With all your silly ways
Now

I can take you home
I can take you home
I can take you home...

Of the many places we hang out, I still fancy New Majestic Bar. Away from the pubbing scene in Central/Town with very nice quality mixers. I want to go there again. Wanted to head there wed with kc, but he sprained his ankle and didnt fancy walking ard. Oh well. i like him, i dont, i like him, i dont.... and it keeps going.

I needa sort myself out, big time. Right now, i like him1, i like her1, i like him2, i like her2. Damned, the problem with many hearts. Or plain confusion of what's like? I guess I am just free from work for now, that's why. But I do miss him2, and the hug i will never forget.

after all, i guess catching the "You dont mess with the Zohan" at the movies will be a better choice, not that am hankering after pirated stuffs, but wait till Jac to pass it to me, i guess i did lose the interest already.


relatively funny, damn sexual - oh that, adam sandler. funny guy, funny speech. the Humus is gross man! and sex with the aunties, and i wonder how come the salon lady will still love him. faints. becoz of the bush maybe? lolx. but its damn huge on the outlook, strong too. haha. duh duh storyline, unless u are involved in the iraq or watever middle east issues. they try to make a joke out of it, and peace, but the smartness of the approach, not exactly there you noe. hmm.

and so, afterwhich headed for the 2nd yoga lesson for the week. Hot flow - 1st time i manage to do the wheel pose successfully, the what seems like the buddha hand at my back. i almost tot, thats the end of me. i hear my bones cracking, probably muscles tearing. shiokingly shiok.

there goes the end of the class, and i went to Hotpot Culture. Lotsa varieties, and nice soup base. $24.90++, drinks additional charge. i lurve the chocolate fondue! damn. and you are able to order all the cooked dishes as well. all in, all in. and so you guessed it, the yoga efforts pretty much offset the loads i have eaten, OPPS.

Yesterday, i finally collected the lappie. and till date, i think it has shutted due to some "dumping physical memory" errors for abt ten times i guess. problems - incompatibility with the Motorola modem, damned is all i can say. i had to download the upgrades, whatever.

Friday, was slacking, clearing, and putting all my stuffs into the bag. didnt bring any home with me, not yet. we all went out for dinner. and once again, chocolate bear joined us. he's prob. going back to london in like 2-3 months time. and adam plannin bali trip. chris moving to his new apartment. me movin away from BGC. lotsa happenings around. wow. oh chix is tendering officially on coming monday, finally out of that hell place tat buzzed 24/7. phew eh!

i left by 10.30pm, fuking tired. but den again, i met chix, we headed helipad (the drinks are bland) den to some bar at clarke quay for the last drink of the night. i was very very much gone. not to mentioned, total slp hrs clocked for wed and thur was 6hrs in total. fuked up, yeah.

Came across this and finds this damn interesting.

All of these are companies that didn't spend quite enough time considering how their online names might appear - and be misread...

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"Get Smart" movie makes my day much happier, good laugh throughout the show.

As so you are probably aware what time I slept this morning. Freak, i am down right tired now.

It was a good long chat with chix anyway. i guess everyone, everywhere is facing issues - be it work, family, relationship, all sorts even weight. hahax.

when a place doesnt need or appreciate your existence anymore, give them the kick and say goodbye like you are coming back (though u noe 99.99% u wont.) pple have been acting strangly, particularly someone like its nonchalant all the while. i get the point for leaving for the better, i just want alil attention, like oways as a fren, tats all. hard to ask for? well, so be it. yup, am upset.

that aside, tried the handstand at yoga yest. the back stretch that comes with the 96 position is damn shiok! basically u need some1 strong for the 9 position, and for the 6 position, the person needs to have strong arms. hehex. 90 mins of bones cracking :)

i guess i better collect my lappie on sat instead. >_< no time no time.

"Rebellion (Lies)" - The Arcade Fire

Sleeping is giving in, no matter what the time is. sleeping is giving
in, so lift those heavy eyelids.

people say that you'll die faster than without water. but we know it's
just a lie, scare your son and scare your daughter.

people say that your dreams are the only things that save ya.
come on baby in our dreams, we can live our misbehaviour.

everytime you close your eyes lies, lies!

people try and hide the night underneath the covers.
people try and hide the light underneath the covers.

come on hide your lovers underneath the covers.
come on hide your lovers underneath the covers.

hidin' from your brothers underneath the covers, come on hide your
lovers underneath the covers.

people say that you'll die faster than without water, but we know it's
just a lie, scare your son, scare your daughter

now here's the sun, it's alright! now here's the moon, it's alright!
now here's the sun, it's alright! now here's the moon, it's alright!

but everytime you close your eyes, lies!

"Keep The Car Running" - The Arcade Fire

Every night my dream's the same
Same old city with a different name
Men are coming to take me away
I don't know why, but I know I can't stay

There's a weight that's pressing down
Late at night you can hear the sound
Even the noise you make when you sleep
Can't swim across a river so deep
They know my name cause I told it to them
But they don't know where and they don't know
When it's coming, when it's coming

There's a fear I keep so deep
Knew its name since before I could speak
Aaaaah Aaaaah Aaaaah Aaaaah
They know my name cause I told it to them
But they don't know where and they don't know
When its coming, oh when but its coming

Keep the car running

If some night I don't come home
Please don't think I've left you alone
The same place animals go when they die
You can't climb across a mountain so high
The same city where I go when I sleep
You can't swim across a river so deep
They know my name cause I told it to them
But they don't know where
And they don't know
When it's coming, oh when is it coming?

Keep the car running
Keep the car running
Keep the car running

wooh

"Crown Of Love" - The Arcade Fire

They say it fades if you let it, love was made to forget it. i carved
your name across my eyelids, you pray for rain i pray for blindness.
if you still want me, please forgive me, the crown of love is not upon me.
if you still want me, please forgive me, because the spark is not within me.
i snuffed it out before my mom walked in my bedroom.
the only thing that you keep changin' is your name. my love keeps
growin' still the same, just like cancer, and you won't give me a
straight answer!
if you still want me, please forgive me, the crown of love has fallen from me.
if you still want me, please forgive me, because your hands are not upon me.
i shrugged them off before my mom walked in my bedroom.
the pains of love, and they keep growin', in my heart there's flowers
growin' on the grave of our old love, since you gave me a straight
answer.
if you still want me, please forgive me, the crown of love is not upon me.
if you still want me, please forgive me, because the spark is not within me.
it's not within me.
it's not within me.
you gotta be the one. you gotta be the way. your name is the only
word, the only word that i can say!

"My Heart Is An Apple" - The Arcade Fire

I'll admit I'm full of shit
That's how I know I love you
That's how I know I trust you,
You're not sure if there's a right or wrong
But it feels like there is when I treat you like this
I go outside

Texas, I won't come home
Not even if you call
I can't hear you at all
I can't explain why it's a sin the state I'm living in
I just feel so tired
I go outside

My mouth is full, your heart is an apple
My mouth is full, your heart is an apple
Pomme-pomme-pomme-pomme-pomme-pomme-pomme-pomme

Please don't even call
I can't hear you at all

I cant explain.

people have been reading people all this while.
be it right or be it wrong, a truth or a lie.
and maybe the point is, dont read to much into a person.
not the actions, the words and such.
if there's any doubts and unclear thoughts, clarify.
easier said than done, easier said than done.
steering your wheels back to the initial piece of ground,
might be a much better choice than asking and finding the answer.

things happen for any reason.
words fly without any reason.
you dont know how i feel.
i dont know how you feel.
does it matters that we know?
or we perceive that we know?
let all these be gone,
since i'll be gone.

i do miss you darl.

Difference between "BOSS & I "

When I Take a long time to finish, I am slow,
When my boss takes a long time, he is thorough

When I don't do it, I am lazy,
When my boss does not do it, he is busy,

When I do something without being told, I am trying to be smart,
When my boss does the same, he takes the initiative,!

When I please my boss, I am apple polishing,
When my boss pleases his boss, he is cooperating,

When I make a mistake, you're an idiot.
When my boss makes a mistake, he's only human.

When I am out of the office, I am wandering around.
When my boss is out of the office, he's on business.

When I am on a day off sick, I am always sick.
When my boss is a day off sick, he must be very ill.

When I apply for leave, I must be going for an interview
When my boss applies for leave, it's because he's overworked

When I do good, my boss never remembers,
When I do wrong, he never forgets

its been very crazy these days, recently. i have no idea what got into me, and it seems like i have been bearing everything in and out, just like that.

sometimes attractions and likings just becomes too hard to hide. eventhough you know things may not work out, and the odds. or rather no wanting to lose it, by a wrong approach and such. but am glad i said, i miss you. and i do, only for those that hear it personally from me. its hard for me to tell someone upfront like - i like you. or, i love you. Hard.

there are many times where i dont say things out. many times where i dont know how to put it out. sighs. and its never a nice feeling to have many thoughts running through the mind, mentally tiring.

but, i do realise. even the most upfront person i come across, hides feelings as well. i guess its just really human nature.

again, i love true tight hugs. sweet and warm.

hell yeah, friday after work can be crazy as hell. hot yoga for pre-detoxation. met cheryl at outram for dinner prior to joining the group at New Majestic Bar. nice place, nice drinks! Kyuri is so refreshing, Bulletin Cookie is so creamily nice. Goatini is just a bad order. Champagne is classic.

head on to Helipad at Central. nice place, but the Cupid Sling drink was only so so. not to mention, the whole glass was filled with ice that bland the drink.

we werent there for too long, and went to adam's place for EuroCup. nah, i am not a fan of football, since i dont understand how its play and blah blah blah. downed a few more mixed drinks. the sofa makes me sleepy. but all the drinks from the night through morning, kicked up my rudeness and craziness. oh, not to mention, the little boy whom i was chasing around creeps me off. (he's the son of adam's maid's boyfriend) that boy is awake like 5am and looking creepily cheeky and laughing all the way, what the hell.

right, and i am sure i was blabbering on about nonsense of which most i cant remember. but the get close, i do enjoy. and before i know it, emotions came pouring.

got home like.. i cant remember, 6am or so. slept through till 5pm, i was pretty gone. and the "best" part, bruises and blueblacks - damned.

confused though, and i was wondering if i was actually dreaming about alot of things and the little boy chase etc. not untill i spoke to deryx after my laptop buying at the PC show. he confirmed that was really what happened. so i embarrassed myself further with the other nonsense stuffs. "great".

my handphone went battery hungry even before i got home. sent it for charging once i reached home and msged him that i was sorry about all the rudeness and nonsense, and that i was pretty gone. and his reply - "Don't worry about it sweetie. We were all pretty gone yesterday." and so i can imagine. awww.

the weeks come and gone.
the weaks home zone.
they blabber and gawper.
and delater that whisper.
that spread like fire.
killing any desire.

and soon it will be friday & the weekends. i cant wait, no longer stands. the most comforting part of today, just a simple sms from kc asking about my latest update on my leave for the current - settled and all.

the most annoying part, the one that never seems to never grow up blabbering like my leave was very much of his concern. + not to mention, diagonal lady PISSED me off at every instance - killing my relati0nship with my clients.

she wasnt let off - an email of apologies to client, and the bottomline to ask her to be fukin mindful about her candidates "appreciated" Cc. to SM. wonderfully done. but this does not appease me at all. i repeat, does not.

furthermore, seems like even something pretty simple cant be kept undercovers. well, who to tell, who not to. i never know. white lie is a better choice after all. and i trust the one not to tell as i distance from our usual.

not all is available to share.

the lunch talk with jeline jie jie was a good one though, its a pity she still holds on to believe SM. I guess now she knows, and I hope she gets it. This place isnt getting anywhere or in anyway better.

besides, i would like to get my lappie by this week! PC show, expect my arrival. hahax. I cant wait, i need a break, and prepare for the coming.

many times, i just wonder how come i can stay awake despite bein super uber tired. yes, here i am on the cyber world.

many thoughts today. many happenings too after the week so far.

- morning, a dragged sat mornin of brandin workshop. cant that f*kin SM sense everyone's detest against all that he's doing? again, i am so dissapointed with this big time loser. his just enjoys his display of distrust in front of the co, and not to mention outsiders.
- DONT ask for suggestions and ideas when U CANT even accept and never would even spend a single cent without a pinch. such a PATHETIC "man".
- the rain didnt makes things any better.
- but adam's presentation does end the 0.5day better, of NON PAID 'working' saturday.
- and the closer colleagues for better company, definitely.

- cabbin out for lunch, seems like a tough decision on where. and i am sick of decidin always, esp. for groups that involve that 'duhz' who sometimes blabber plain rubbish.
- i jus enjoyed the udon, and chat with the rest
- waitin for what comes next week, can be quite excitin

- left for home, slpt abit.
- woke up and left to town for Kungfu Panda!
- super funny, so cute. hehehe! u feel like a happy kid while watchin and after watchin
- met chix & june along with sis n pf at iced cold beer.
- beer wasnt exactly iced there, funnily.
- chatted abit and left for home.

(the viewpoint: stayin at current is totally hopeless now, might as well venture big else where, and even if it doesnt turn out super great, it will still be a good learnin ground, better place, higher compensation, and definitely no loss.)

right aft work on fri nite, headed to RH and met them for the final decision, and the impt information and paperwork. 4th time, and they are still bein upfront. i am amazed by their pride for the co. (there must be somethin about this co. tat its employees take high pride in talkin about. the best part, their main core value of ethics and strong teamwork and share of success.)

i am really lookin forward to this aft all this while, after all my endurance of the stupid SM all this while. if not for jo bein ard, if not for elle do cousin who stood by us, meet us and hear our every single complains (yes, in this co. there's only complains, how sad) even aft 1yr off the co, i wont have stayed till now.

its so hard, its really so hard ( i cant believe tears rolling down like nobody business) for this decision. i dont want to leave working with jo, and adam and miko, who came close to our team, sitting in our island, bringing a smiles to our face all the time. the rest of the co. are good pple, except for 1 evil biatch whom i unexpectedly "invite" into this place, that is causing the entire stirred-up. but den again, if not for her, i wont have seen SM even deeper.

all these only made me realise tat, although am not even the least bit willin to leave jo, the O&G team, the other colleagues, the career that i have built here, i am totally demoralised, upset, angry at all the crap that is goin on. we never shld have believe and trust him again that he would change, not to mention again, his dis-trust for us all, is just an insult. its high time for movin on. ARGH!

i will miss jo big time. :( everything abt the team.

(thanks to chix that am now continuing with this blog entry, else i cant stop the waterfall)

right, there's so much i cant put in words. i am not a very expressive person in fact, not verbally to pple i care so much about.

and dinner at tcc-bugis, a total bad experience and am not goin there anymore. with tat, jac got us all off the bill payin which was pretty amazin.

headed breeks for dinners and chatted further, till close 12am.

i cant wait to get off work soon. will meet the group later after RH final meet-up i suppose. this is the 4th, >_<" oh yes, lunch at asian kitchen was all good, and damn full again. hehe.

its a pretty tired thurs- lunch was damn fullin and got the sea salt on discount from Bodyshop (smells so beachy, hehe, i miss the beach & holiday!!!!). boredom continue till 6pm. at night went to lwm, loss 900g. not too bad. damn hot session. but i did enjoy the service, to be frank. got myself a light pink shirt dress + belt.

wed was 0.5day at work. so tired. attended RH event at Singapore Cricket Club. nice place, nice team members, nice food. hehe. and met up with kc right after at slightly after 8pm. miss him. nice time spent for the entire day. i do love tight hugs and bein in! :P

suddenly so much or rather everything is comin up. i am facing the many crossroads once again, but i gotta give and take, and face whatever uncertainties there is.


its easier said than done, but you know deep down you cant afford to give up. its either this or that, or to be stuck at current. issues are faced, randomly & unexpectedly. nobody say its going to be easy, but tough it may be, returns are expected to be high. plans need to be re-arrange, so it seems.

how many rounds of questions, meetings with strangers and opportunities and unexpected events one faces every single day? never know, and many are unplanned for. or maybe planned for a reason.

yes, I have been having lots of thoughts these days. been thinking, how come things never satisfy me.

and just as I was missing, its not the right time nor the best day. and an event unplanned for, came to me as an invite. maybe a good one.


i need a silent answer.

i have just received the letter from SIM, yes and the course is commencin July. finally after 2yrs of saving the entire course fee, but den again am going for the interest free installment. hehe. 2yrs will fly by, and i cant believe i hav already slogged for 3yrs now.... faints.

not to mention, that will come with busy-ness. very much.

yest was a busy day since 11am through 2am. spa treatment + lunch + shoppin + buffet dinner at auntie jenny's house + shoppin + movie - Chronicles of Narnia.

woops. (and so i slpt from 4am - close 7pm today.) lolx u cant blame me for bein so darn tired!

right on fri, tim called personally to apologise for not bein able to meet me together with vivien. oh well, have been switch to monday instead. alamak!

oh so we all head on for the drinks cum dinner as planned early part of the week. evelyn came and told us about her 'shock' encounter with the evil SM. i guess we are only waiting for doom's day now. better save up for the doom, nv know wats gonna happen, lets get really to pack-up.

and for him to believe some1 who has made him the worst than before person now, i can only say "how smart". this person has given him 10 apples, and now she's taking 20 or more back, in the dark that is. "good luck"

well, left for movie with chix and her colleagues - Sex & The City. fantastic girls movie. guys shld watch it too! If only its that easier to find 3 besties who will brave through all with you over the years. and to come to think of it, my besties doesnt seems to get along with each other, making me run only solo with them. I wonder why.

i have been tired with almost everything, everyone. i guess once sch starts, solo time will be my craving. might as well. and i guess only the true ones will keep in touch.

and am very much done with shopping. full stop. enough spent for the many months to come as well. ARGH.

 

do do - "mischievous" pretty dancer
mother jo - *psstt*
h.pl - asuka world
the director Yasmine - jailed for her great movies
acquaintance - one of the AD members
gabrielle - bestie since long-time back
fashion is spinach
chic