Sunday, June 15, 2008
its been very crazy these days, recently. i have no idea what got into me, and it seems like i have been bearing everything in and out, just like that.
sometimes attractions and likings just becomes too hard to hide. eventhough you know things may not work out, and the odds. or rather no wanting to lose it, by a wrong approach and such. but am glad i said, i miss you. and i do, only for those that hear it personally from me. its hard for me to tell someone upfront like - i like you. or, i love you. Hard.
there are many times where i dont say things out. many times where i dont know how to put it out. sighs. and its never a nice feeling to have many thoughts running through the mind, mentally tiring.
but, i do realise. even the most upfront person i come across, hides feelings as well. i guess its just really human nature.
again, i love true tight hugs. sweet and warm.
hell yeah, friday after work can be crazy as hell. hot yoga for pre-detoxation. met cheryl at outram for dinner prior to joining the group at New Majestic Bar. nice place, nice drinks! Kyuri is so refreshing, Bulletin Cookie is so creamily nice. Goatini is just a bad order. Champagne is classic.
head on to Helipad at Central. nice place, but the Cupid Sling drink was only so so. not to mention, the whole glass was filled with ice that bland the drink.
we werent there for too long, and went to adam's place for EuroCup. nah, i am not a fan of football, since i dont understand how its play and blah blah blah. downed a few more mixed drinks. the sofa makes me sleepy. but all the drinks from the night through morning, kicked up my rudeness and craziness. oh, not to mention, the little boy whom i was chasing around creeps me off. (he's the son of adam's maid's boyfriend) that boy is awake like 5am and looking creepily cheeky and laughing all the way, what the hell.
right, and i am sure i was blabbering on about nonsense of which most i cant remember. but the get close, i do enjoy. and before i know it, emotions came pouring.
got home like.. i cant remember, 6am or so. slept through till 5pm, i was pretty gone. and the "best" part, bruises and blueblacks - damned.
confused though, and i was wondering if i was actually dreaming about alot of things and the little boy chase etc. not untill i spoke to deryx after my laptop buying at the PC show. he confirmed that was really what happened. so i embarrassed myself further with the other nonsense stuffs. "great".
my handphone went battery hungry even before i got home. sent it for charging once i reached home and msged him that i was sorry about all the rudeness and nonsense, and that i was pretty gone. and his reply - "Don't worry about it sweetie. We were all pretty gone yesterday." and so i can imagine. awww.